Saying Goodbye to 2017 in True Alignment Fashion
As I sit here, the last day of December, the last day of 2017, I am definitely in a reflective mood. At the beginning of the month I declared on social media that December was going to be the best month of the year for me. December is typically my worst. The holidays, past memories, my birthday, all create an enormous amount of stress and strife for me- always have. So, I, instead decided to CHOOSE a different mindset this year going into the month.
I actually knew there were going to be a lot of difficult things to do and face, but I realize that I DO get to choose how I react to those challenges. That is what this year has been about. DECIDING how I want my life to be, my business to be, my relationships to be. And then ALIGNING my thinking, my choices and my actions, to be CONGRUENT with my true, inner core values. To line up with my inner guidance system within instead of searching for all the answers being offered from too many outside sources.
I have spent far too long worrying about what others may think about me, disappointing or hurting other people’s feelings, sacrificing my dreams and goals for the sake of promoting others, playing small because I felt unworthy.
And, I am still a work in progress. But I am so extremely PROUD of myself, and how far I have come in 2017 alone. And, guess what? December has had an accelerated period of growth, understanding and compassion for myself and others.
I never used to take the time to celebrate my accomplishments or to even recognize the success I have had along the way. It was never enough and there was always more to do before I had really “arrived.” But one thing that I have learned in my personal journey is that you must integrate your wins, all your wins, FULLY, no matter how small. Sometimes just getting out of bed in the morning is a win. And making it through a tough day is a MAJOR win.
Without a doubt, I have had more than my fair share of very tough days this year; as well as the last 5- hell- a lifetime of shit shows really. December 2017 was no exception. It has been extremely tough and pretty ugly at times. A lot of the same feelings, emotions, memories triggered not-so-pretty reactions in me. This, along with the fact that I have been digging up a lot of repressed emotions that go along with a major move coming up, when you are downsizing and haven’t dealt with a ton of “crap” from the move after a divorce 5 ½ years ago. My two daughters feel the stress, too, and often “mishandle” it in their confused and dramatic teenage brains; adding to my mental and physical chaos.
But, as I sit here now, I am at peace. The practices that have become a such a pivotal piece of my armamentarium, have been absolutely life-changing. And, I have given myself PERMISSION to finally feel the “ugly” instead of denying it or sweeping it under the rug for fear that it will not appear very “lady-like” (a Southern thing I think). The compelling force behind this monumental and long-in-coming transformation this year has come from a deep and true alignment and acceptance of who I am, and really TUNING into what is best for me.
So, after waking up this morning to a guided meditation and then getting out of bed and continuing with another quiet meditation and journaling session, I dry-brushed and then took a long hot shower. My daughters and I then made a small brunch together and sat down to eat. We were talking about how to spend New Year’s Eve and then I, of course, had to start on my “incessant preaching” that I can’t seem to help. I just said that I wanted to really focus on showing each other kindness next year and what if we each said something kind to each other, a compliment or something that they do well, right now. Our moods immediately elevated as we laughed and smiled and accepted the compliments. Both of my girls got up and hugged and kissed me. And I felt the love and peace wash over me. THIS, is what I CHOOSE to carry into 2018. That Alignment. That flow. That feeling that ALL IS RIGHT IN YOUR WORLD. Alignment was my word for 2017. And it has changed my life.
I am SO ready and excited to move into 2018, knowing that I have the tools, the love, the support to face even the hardest days. And with consistent practicing, the momentum builds and the opportunities abound.
My “Word” for 2018 is Prosperity. But not just Prosperity by itself. SOUL-DRIVEN PROSPERITY. And not just wealth in terms of money (although, I want that too!). But Prosperity in terms of ease, plenty, comfort, security, well-being, flow, love and joy. And all guided by your SOUL, not your ego that restrains and restricts. The Prosperity that ALL of us deserve.
I am so appreciative of all the pain, suffering, and hard lessons that I have learned because they have given me wisdom, character and now the fire to speak my truth, in order to serve others, to help others KNOW, that they are worthy of their own Prosperity too!
Be well my friends. And Thank You for being a part of my journey. Enjoy the last day of 2017 with a happy heart and leap into 2018 with a SOUL ON FIRE!